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Split Decision

One multiple's tales of falling apart and coming back together.

About the Book

The Cover-Up of a Lifetime

Quirky and creative, 13-year-old tomboy Christina dodged recurring nightmares, fickle friends, contemplating suicide, cruel classmates, and unpredictably abusive parents, only to find herself suddenly confronted with a flood of childhood memories of sexual abuse seemingly from nowhere. Stuff no 13-year-old could just make up — but still — were these foggy memories real?

In the midst of overwhelming emotional turmoil at 16, armed only with those memories, the introductions started: creatures from fantasy coming forward in Christina's head, a strange reunion of the people who had always stood by her side to face her haunted lifetime. This intersected a series of nervous breakdowns leading to a suicidal disaster.

On the other side of the unthinkable, everyone pooled their resources to rebuild their shared life: try to locate their lost marbles, navigate legal trouble, figure out how to work together, forge healthy relationships, fix their broken boundaries, overcome a traumatic past, and plan a worthwhile future. When they finally get some proof of abuse, Christina disappears entirely. In her place are a group of babies, children, and pre-adolescents in desperate need of reparenting.

We are the Crisses, and this is our story of facing our past, falling apart over the years, coming back together — and our enormous Split Decision.

About the Author

Rev. Criss Ittermann
Rev. Criss Ittermann

If there were a who's who of online multiple-personalities, the Crisses would be one of the notable names. Founder of Kinhost.org, the premier online manual by multiples, for multiples, the Crisses (aka Rev. Criss Ittermann) are well-known amongst persons with multiple personalities. They are also a life coach, Interfaith minister, Shaman, herbalist, Reiki Master, and more.

Crisses grew up in Brooklyn and at the age of 16 following an avalanche of tragic events, Crisses spent 9 months in a mental hospital. The adolescent ward of the hospital was far from what you may have seen in movies; it was much more like a Breakfast Club vacation from a troublesome life than a traumatic experience from a psychothriller movie. Quiet, observant, and wise beyond their years, Crisses became a "mother hen" for other people who were outcast from society, for whatever reason.

While in the hospital, Crisses confessed about the "other people" in their head to their doctor. While he didn't put their diagnosis on paper until 2001, Crisses were diagnosed with multiple personalities in 1986 and flat-out refused to integrate.

After discharge from all treatment, the Crisses continued their journey to their own particular brand of wholeness — a life of collaboration, understanding, kindness and community within themselves. They now share the tools that have helped them with others so that other multiples can improve internal relations and communication.

Table of Contents

    • Disclaimers
    • Author’s Note: Struggles with Identity
  • Introduction
  • Heartbeat
    • Christina’s PreBirth Tale
    • Nothing
    • Doorways
    • I’ll Face it Alone
  • This is the Story of a Girl — or is it?
    • This is the Story of a Girl
    • Home
    • Support Group Junkie
    • Emergence
  • As Inside
    • Fragmented World, Fragmented Children
    • A Walk in the Park
  • So Outside
    • Walking In
    • Another Mother
    • Flying and Breathing Fire
    • Robert and The Light
    • No Father of Mine
  • Emergence
    • Poetry
    • Don’t Play with Matches
    • Traumatized by Soap
    • Names
    • Brotherly Love
    • Characters
    • Letters
  • Multiple Moments
    • You are Getting Very Sleepy…
    • Faceplant
    • Baseball Bats & 2x4s
  • Echoes
    • She’s a Little Runaway
    • Run Like Hell
    • Escort Service
    • Slut
    • Cousins
    • Slut II
    • Bisexual Nymphomaniac
  • Reclaimation
    • Weaving
    • Besties
  • Out of Phase
    • You Have My Blessing
    • Singing at the Kiss Concert
    • Cutting My Hair
    • Singing in the Hospital
    • I Know You from Somewhen
    • True Friend
  • Multi-Faceted
    • Minx & Telré
    • Fox of 3 Tails
    • The Teacher
    • Wilding/Wolfpack
    • Hawthorn’s Leg
    • Tracy & Almerissa at the Conference
  • Without a Trace
    • We Will Keep the Color of Your Eyes…
    • Oh My God!
    • Boxing Day
  • Inner Worlds
    • Interior Decorating
    • Aliessa is Dead
    • Long live Aliessa
    • 1986
    • Ribbon
  • Outside Mysteries
    • Happy Poet
    • Losing Touch, Getting a Grip
    • Digging a Hole
    • The Wall of Worlds
    • A Way Out
    • Don’t Forget to Use a Condom
  • Past, Present, Future
    • Privet Bushes
    • Reflections
    • Absence
    • Nevermore
    • Last Man Standing
    • A Case for Kidnapping
  • Confessions
    • Giving Up on Men
    • Burns
    • Cleansing
  • Epilogue
  • Notes

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